Saturday, 13 February 2010

  • I'm back

    Okay, so took a break to gather my bearings.  Since then I've become a little more productive.  I got another job back at the Hilton, so that's good. Finally get a paycheck and place to be.  I've been going nuts, as you've previously read.  I am in school taking three classes, with plenty of homework.  So, that helps keep me busy.  Finally, of course, been playing Call of Duty.. Can't break away!

    I also, by request of my darling friend, Rich, I have recorded a video of myself singing a song he loves and I had fun doing it, posting up, and reading peoples comments. I decided to post it here, too.  View it! Pass it along & stay tuned for another video.  It won't be long!! Leave comments, make requests, say hi.  It's fun and I hope you guys enjoy listening!

    http://www.youtube.com/msceliaguerrero

Friday, 15 January 2010

  • breakdown

    Today was a terrible day. As positive as I TRY to be-- and I really do try, i'm just at a low. All time low? - Not too sure yet. I suppose there is always room to go lower, but nonetheless it is a feeling and situation that I do not miss and I really do not want to go through again. I can't.

    I definitely had a breakdown, for sure. I am just having a really hard time finding the motivation to keep moving forward.

    I am going through a lot of changes.. as far as thoughts and approach on my life.. and I feel as though it's going to change everything. Everything.

    I am not the same person. I am not perfect. I am emotionally unstable & ridiculously hard on myself. I am somewhat antisocial because I don't want to open that door that could potentially lead to more drama in my life. I want so many things in my life, yet somehow the decisions I've made along the way have set me back. I am crossing my fingers that this will be the year that everything turns around.

    I don't even know what I am saying anymore & can barely keep my eyes open. I'm vent some more later when I can think straight. It's about 4 am now and I am beat.

    Lights Out.

Wednesday, 06 January 2010

Sunday, 03 January 2010

Saturday, 02 January 2010

  • Currently
    Across The Universe [Deluxe Edition]
    By Various
    I Want You (She's So Heavy)
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    music of the night

    Florida here we come again..

    So, just taking a break from Call of Duty MW2.  It was supposed to be to take Moose out & start laundry.. but who cares.

    Anyways, It's going to be an all-nighter as I have laundry and packing to do.  We'll be gone until Sat. Driving down.. good times.

    It's always a good time when we go and I could use some alone alone time with my baby. ha - :suckaa:

    Moving On... to nothing actually.  I'm finished for now.  My hands are cold and my body is starting to get sore.  Too much distraction to think right now. 

     

    Okay, I lied. I am so gone right now haha. Anyways, I was going to leave and then remembered what it was I was going to do, hence my title. ::spacey::

    I was going to sing. Even though everyone does it nowadays, I still want to record videos of myself singing. Share it with friends & family.  I look at some of these nice videos of all different types and they make me feel happy, calm, and just relaxed a little bit.  So, I thought I should try to spread a little chear myself...

    Any requests?

  • I am who I am.. Let the good times begin!

    So, I'm on my way to go snowboarding with Baby, Cookie, Leona, Kyle, & Kevin.

    At first I wasn't going to go.  However, I remembered that I made a new years resolution after all. haha.

    I will do what I want.  I want to enjoy myself.  So, that being said - I decided to go.  In the end, I'll be on the slopes doing my own thing sort of anyway.  So, why not?

    I didnt want to go for a number of reasons:

    1. I thought it was a family thing that was due, but then kevin decided to go so thats no longer the case.

    2. $$$ but I stumbled upon some unexpected dough that I figured i'd spend some on something fun for myself.

    3. I want to have fun.

    So, fun it is.

    I didn't go last time & kicked myself in the butt for it.  Now, when I want to do something, wear something, say something- i'm going to.  I don't want to hold back on who I am because of the fear that someone else might not like it, or they may judge me, or criticize.  I don't care.  I am who I am.  Take it or leave it, right?


Friday, 01 January 2010

  • 2010!

    HAPPY NEW YEAR!

    a new year indeed!

    My 2010 is going to be great.  I still have yet to make any resolutions & i think I might skip it altogether.  I don't want to start the year thinking of things that aren't good to me.  I want to start the year completely happy with everything in my life as is.  This way, it can only go up from here.

    I don't want to make any goals focusing on my weight or social life.  I'm happy as is. 

    If there any goal its to be me again.  Not to care about what other people think of me.  I've started and I must say it is a goooood feeling.  I mean really, at the end of the day: we all move on!

    So why dwell!?


    Well off to run some errands.  enjoy the new year

Monday, 28 December 2009

  • tick tock cuckoo clock

    I'm going crazy!

    I do not know what to do with myself.  I miss you.  It's only been a day, but a it's a day too many. 

    I think my Master Plan is backfiring because I'm crazy without you.  It's true.  Call me weak if you want, I don't care.  It's love.  That's what love does it makes you unlike any form of yourself you've ever been. 

    Anyway, I can't wait to see you..


    Hope you feel the same..

  • on the grind

    Job-hunt.  Yikes.

    It's such a pain, but what can I do?  I need a job.  I feel so useless not working.  I'm not used to having so much indefinite free time.  However, it does have its benefits naturally. 

    I get to spend more time with David, Moose, Frankie & my Mother.  I have time to keep in touch with friends.  I also have time to clean and take care of my other responsibilities. 

    It is tough though still to stay focused on getting things done.  It seems to be easier for me to complete my personal tasks when i'm on a time constraint.  When it's unlimited, I notice I spend more time playing video games with the knowledge that i'll have time "later."

    Well, I just finished my resume tweaking.  Now, to look for something~!

    Wish Me Luck!

  • Currently
    Brand New Eyes
    By Paramore
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    another return... * i can't break away ;)

    I know I say this all the time, but I'm back! haha.  I can't believe I've had this account since.... 2003? or sooner.  It's really crazy when I go back and read all of my entries over the past few years.  So much happens in such a small amount of time.

    I guess you can say I was inspired for a cameo after watching Julie & Julia.  Super cute movie.  Absolutely loved it.  Watch and you'll understand my inspiration..sort of.

    I also decided to come online and look at my old blogs of when David & I first started our relationship together.  I guess I just needed a little bit of a pick me up and a reminder of what we have... Taking a few days for ourselves.  It's tough, but i love him.  We needed it.  It's nothing serious, just something I think will help us in the long run..

    Plan is to go on a date this week. Sweet right?

    Honey, if you read this- I LOVE YOU! ;)

    Anyway.. I've got to get to bed now.  Sleeping over @ my Mom's and made a deal with Frank.  He can't go to sleep until I do.  You can imagine how crazy we're all going considering it is now...1243AM and he's bouncing off the walls.  It's definitely time.  I'll return soon.. once it is lights out.

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